Pissed off.

I feel I’m trapped in this web of deceit and I’ve got nothing left to do but complain.

Complain without really doing much –> and I hate it.

I hate that I have to eat it all up that principles are abused. Where are my morals?It seems that everything is compromised.

It’s a cycle, a vicious one. To keep the wheels on the bus go round and round, one must always sacrifice; and it seems that I’m always the bait.

I’m still a bit high from watching The Dark Knight. A friend and I went out to watch the movie in Ayala. She was not in the mood to think about things so I accompanied her.  When we were there, I forgot that it was Saturday so there were a number of teens and tweens frolicking around.

I didn’t expect to get excited after cause I wasn’t excited when I entered the movie house. I was even planing to just sleep on some parts since I just had my shift. But I was glued at my seat while my eyes were fixated on the screen due to the different plots and scenes and twists.I commend all the people who created this movie. The actors were great in portraying their parts.

I never expected it to be just full of adrenaline. The Tumbler (batmobile) and batpod (motorcycle) just left me in awe, wishing I had one of those babies.

The last film of Heath Ledger, he was really good at playing The Joker. So demented and full of life that you can’t help but really be amazed on how serious one could get to internalize a character. Funny part was when he was telling Batman “You complete me” in a serious and psychotic way.

I ultimately liked the part where he (in a nurse’s outfit) walked out of Gotham hospital with a bomb detonator at hand, looked and acted so silly while creating a huge explosion at the background.

Anyway, even Two Face which I thought was just going to be introduced for the next sequel was part of it. The dark and raw feel of Gotham city was presented descriptively. Sure the movie may be dragging because it ran for two and a half hours, but it seemed so nice knowing that the shows you watched when you were a kid that just got home from school would be shown on the big screen.

Well, we went home afterward. I wish I could stay more but I still had overtime work to do that we didn’t get to unwind some more after the flick. Maybe next time.

Two of my colleagues applied for a position and got promoted so it’s inevitable that a food treat would follow suit. We originally planned to go to Pino!  but it would’ve been way of budget. So we opted to go somewhere more affordable but with class. At least it’s free! hehe.

Golden Cowrie
Salinas Drive, Lahug

Golden Cowrie, Salinas Drive

menu

banana leaf plate

faucet, window… bow.

 
outside our room, lights… bow.

 
baked scallops! sinigang!

 
crispy pata!

unlimited rice!

full, famished.

I need to buy a new pair of shoes. My current sneakers are getting old and tattered that I’m afraid that one of these days, they’ll just fall apart when I go out with my friends which is a bit funny but more so, embarrassing.

To buy a pair of Blowfish Shoes in so I would be nice just to have a pair in reserved for casual occasions. I’m not really into the whole “getting up” idea; well maybe just on the proper circumstance. But just on a lazy Sunday where you want to go out and grab a quick bite for lunch.

As I was looking for more information, I found out that they have a good collection of Blowfish Women’s Shoes and Blowfish Men’s Shoes that are available already. I’m more concerned of the fit and the laid back style that it creates since again I’m not in tune with the idea of making a shocking impression to people I pass by. At least they look comfortable and sturdy and good.

A familiar face walked inside the elevator I was riding. I didn’t know I kept staring at her when she nodded her head off to signal that she recognized me as well. The only problem was how, where and when did we meet or at least “saw” each other. We just exchanged a couple of words regarding our work and tenureship.

When I got off the elevator, I was still trying to recall when I had met her. I was at the middle of the street when I later realized that she was a former schoolmate (a batch lower) in high school when I studied in Dumaguete.

All the whole the places circling through my head: Davao? Dumaguete? Bacolod? Cebu? Dumaguete? Manila?

and between those cities were schools also juggling in between: Stella Maris? St. Paul? San Agustin? Pleasant Mount? COSCA? San Carlos?

My, my, the hassle of recalling my schoolmates I only recognize by face. The upside (or downside) of having been able to study in different schools. The pressure of stepping up a notch because of newer people coming in. The depressing note of my memory failing me.

The week has been terrible. My body clock has been irregular that I stay up late at work just to comply with the quota everyday. I know it’s still my fault why I haven’t done much during my scheduled shift. Anyway, this week isn’t half bad though. I guess it’s just a matter of where you place yourself.

Highlights of the week:
1. Ebay Item Arrived - I purchased a battery (a knock-off I believe) on ebay and it arrived! Straight  from the CA, when I got home from work, my brother told me I received a package from the mailman containing a battery of my Olympus SW790 camera.

2. Passport Appearance - I went to the Department of Foreign Affairs (DFA) for my appearance because of the passport I had processed. I looked like a fool too, still being ignorant to these application procedures. The agency told me to just go there today but never gave clear instructions on what to do. My point of contact didn’t really even provide me enough data which resulted me to asking strangers there. Good thing that there were a number of helpful people. I had my picture taken after my shift which resulted to the tiresome expression in my photo being evident. Anyway, I have to wait for 25 business days until I can get a response.

3. Eat-Outs - Had dinner with my current colleagues because two got promoted. Ate pizza because of a friend’s birthday and had lunch with my wavemates in my previous account because 3 of us never got to treat the others due to being busy; we had to treat them because it’s been agreement whenever somebody gets promoted. From 20 people, there were only 6 left who’re still in the same company. We’ve come a long way after 2+ years.

I’ll be doing overtime work over the weekend so I’m needing all the strength I need.

Went out to dinner with my lunch buddies. We ate at Casa Verde at The Walk. We found a good table after a couple of minutes. We were supposed to eat here during their opening but it turned out that the opening we were assuming was actually just a test run for their families and relatives. Anyway, we went there one work shift and we ate. The three of us initially planned on ordering their famous baby back ribs, but we figured that we’d find other dishes so that we could just share and taste each of the food. Anyway, nothing still beats those special baby back ribs.

Casa Verde
The Walk
Asiatown IT Park, Cebu

pictures and figures

 
people

 
wall signs

 
chicken fingers and beef tenderloin

hungry

their specialty: Baby Back ribs @ 168 pesos

 
busy at Casa Verde (The Walk)

 
lamp inside

 
like TGIF

must sleep but can’t, can sleep but mustn’t.

I need to meet the target and I barely have 5 days left to finish them. Everybody’s been helpful but I need more than help. I need to get out of this routine already.

Of course like any other job comes various stress factors that are associated with it. I just have to deal with this in some way.

I want to sleep but I need to work. shoot.

I was just browsing online when I stumbled upon a site that dealt with mesothelioma. I asked my colleague who graduated with medical degree what it meant and he told me it has something to do with cancer due to exposed asbestos. The nice the thing about it is that he still has his wit intact. He’s actually our trivia master during boring conference room days.

Two weekends ago, a couple of colleagues and I went somewhere in Liloan just to head off to a beach with sand so we could also practice skimming. I’m not a skimmer but I like to learn. At least it wasn’t that expensive to go there. I had fun overall, but it’s just contradicting that when we went back to the city, we ate at a restaurant for dinner. We spent a whole lot more because of that dinner compared to the table rent and fare for all of us. But I liked how it turned out anyhow.

Lemon Grass
Ayala Center Cebu

Lemon Grass

 
rice

barbecue and fish

blah

 
soup - hot!

lemonade and tea

 
outside

I’d sometimes wonder how it would be like to have a home office. At least I won’t have to commute everyday to and fro work which lessens the risk of something happening to you along the way. It would be nice cause you wouldn’t have to worry how you’ll look since you can work even in your jammies. Plus there are a number of breaks that you can do since you can just work at your own pace.

I’m beat. It’s a Sunday and I just got up from an all-nigher (all-dayer if you will call it even). I’m supposed to have a dvd marathon but I don’t know if I’ll have one. I went to the theater yesterday to watch Wanted. After the first time, I still sat in the movie house cause I slept. Yes, I did, when I woke up, I would see a different stranger beside me when I glanced at my sides just to check if I’d been mugged when I was in that deep slumber. Nada. Good thing.

I hailed a cab and went home and shot straight to bed. 12 hours later I woke up, felt something aching in my mouth  (almost forgot to take my meds since I had my tooth extracted) and watched some reruns of seasons of the Apprentice I got from the trusted dibidi sellers.

Now I’m off to go out and grab a bite for lunch but my legs are still week. It makes me just stop and think for a moment on the things that are revolving around.

What the f*ck have I done lately?

So I seem to work really late already that it’s hard to really turn my body clock properly. I’ve been going like this for the past few days that it seems that I’m beginning to become lazy with doing my day to day activities. Oh well, I just hope I’ll be able to sort out this mess eventually.

My colleague at work is also a bit cash-strapped though she’s been participating in those Market Stalls just around town so she can sell her merchandise. She’s been planning to hire some people to set up some Gazebos and Marquees for her products. I hope that she’s in a way better situation as it seems that it’s stressful. The task of selling stuff that isn’t yours, I mean.

My passport’s still in process though. I’m wishing that it would be sooner. I just like the fact that I have something to look forward to. Anyway, as of the moment, it seems a bit far beyond reach. I’m doing my best to get busy with certain things. At least, I’m already enrolled in the near health center. That will keep me busy in the meant time. My, my, I seem to be all too busy.