Note: This post was written prior to my departure, I didn’t have the opportunity to publish it right away.
It’s 9pm and I’m waiting for my flight at 10:50. A flight that marks the beginning of my journey which according to my friend, is my biggest adventure so far. The initial plan was to stay for two weeks and go through the Indochina route. But with the recent turn of events, I’ve decided to stay longer and travel to more countries.
Everything is falling into place yet I’m having mixed emotions. Should I push through with the trip or am I just carried away?
Normally, I’d just inform everyone that I’ll be gone and be back after a few days and this time was no different. Leaving home was such a blur that I wondered if the saying farewell was too soon. I even forgot to bid goodbye to our dog.
There are moments when I feel that I’m just making a hasty decision and I’m wondering if my plans are really going to happen. I haven’t really thought about it in full because my mind is too preoccupied with other things at the present. But when I finally have the time to contemplate, I somehow realize how big of a deal this idea actually is.
Luck Playing On Me
A series of unfortunate events had occurred before I arrived at the airport.
- I came late for my flight from Cebu to Manila and I had to buy a new ticket.
- An earthquake happened while I was boarding the plane.
- One of my ATM cards was blocked when I tried to withdraw funds.
- The check-in counter was bent on having me turn my baggage in when I wanted it hand-carried.
- I also spent so much on taxi fare just to have my Pesos exchanged to Dollars in Manila.
- I had a bit of a challenge at the Immigration counter when they wouldn’t let me go right away.
It seems that luck is testing me and I’ve only a thin slice of patience left. But I can’t back out now. I’m already here at the NAIA airport and I’ve got my tickets. I will push through!
Sitting at a food shop at the airport and taking advantage of their WiFi access, I can’t help but think things over to the point that I’m getting sick to my stomach. It’s more than just the butterflies; my life and my future depends on this now. It’s that moment when you begin to doubt whether this was a good decision or not.
But then, I am led back to the reason why I did this in the first place – It’s time to live.
time to fly
A friend gave a few words of encouragement that made me see things in a better light:
“just go with the flow. you're here now so be here. stop doubting yourself. you make a mistake, we'll fix it.”
A positive mindset is what I needed and I’m thankful to have been given the tip at the right moment.
The minimum target is six months and after paying most of my debts back in Cebu, I only have around 30,000 bucks as my pocket money. I have my freelance job to back me up but I need to work the proper number of hours in order to have enough funds to stay alive.
I also need to find a place to stay for a few weeks so I can start working. The faster I can start working, the longer I can stay anywhere. I’m still not certain how long I’ll be able to keep this up. Who knows, I’ll just go home and treat this trip as a short vacation. In the mean time, I say, "Let the delusions begin."
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soloflightEd.com is a travel blog by Edcel Suyo. He enjoys performing headstands and crazy stunts during his trips in the Philippines and the rest of Asia. He just started his backpacking trip across Southeast Asia in order to live as a digital nomad. Read more about the beginning of his delusions of grandeur here.
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