Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I come here to talk
I hope you understand

That green eyes
Yeah the spotlight shines upon you
And how could anybody deny you
I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter
Now I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you
Green eyes
—coldplay

this post is dedicated to the girl who attracted my attention minus the attempt upon riding a public vehicle. coincidentally, a series of related topics arose when reading blogs and a national newspaper along the day ( i.e. big bro and ravissant on their entries, and an article on the wednesday 2bu edition of the philippine daily inquirer).

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rode a jeep to school and had a hard time finding a place to sit since they only had one or two seats vacant; and that’s if you really squeeze your butt to insertion. so you can imagine my eyeballs circling to find that spot to jam in. and with that action, a girl wearing a red spaghetti-strapped top (is that what it’s called?) that fitted her bust to perfection caught my eyes. it left me stunned to watch those glands, that also complimented her beauty, gasping for air. i sat opposite her. the jeep was following its route when i kept on glancing sideways not looking a bit conscious if those were really hers. i got intrigued because of how she looked and the way she talked, evidently a minor, around 1st or 2nd year in highschool. what hinted me also were the words that came out of her mouth that sounded that she wasn’t properly raised and didn’t leave a tint of pagkamahinhin in her. i wasn’t being too obvious with my new fascination. it also helped that she was busy blabbering to her seatmates (her lola and a friend; in decent attires).

while avoiding myself not to stare at those curvy vuluptuous (haha, thanks for the thesaurus mrs. jones-law!) mamillas again, i wondered if i was in a hidden-camera show or not. maybe they tried to do a local version of a segment in a foreign program (forgot what it was) that displayed a woman wearing the same top but with a tiny cam inserted on her cleavage. her mission was to talk to different men and capture how many times they’d take a glimpse at her front while not looking too obvious. and yes, it did make me laugh on how the male specie would pretend to ‘not look’ or look but in discretion; not knowing that it could also happen to me. but that was a long time ago. and i was still young.

it made me think that it also implies to women as well. women (in my opinion) also look at each other’s bosoms as much (or even more) as we do. whatever reason they may have, curiosity or envy. and with my case, why wouldn’t you? or in a much better logic, how couldn’t you? i didn’t take advantage of the situation, but what if the same occurence is being presented to you? what would you do? look away? yeah right. i already did that, but the force was just to strong to resist to investigate. she was really young and you don’t get to see tisays in straps inside jeeps everyday.

i’m not a pervert, fyi. but it just clearly manifests how liberated people can be. how time has changed the perception of our ladies and their costumes. and there’re some cases wherein these women would complain about the lustful eyes of their opposite sex especially the ones in clubs and bars. it makes me sick. women shouldn’t wear outfits like those and expect that they get treated more or less the same respect as that of a nun. i mean, they’re asking to be laid right?

okay so i may be wrong, that it’s just how she dresses and what care do i give that she wanted to express herself with an ensemble which had cups beckoning for some drastic attention. and that women nowadays are prone to expressing their sexuality. dominatrix? freedom of expression? oh, sure. don’t just blame it all on us in the near end. come to think of it, the issue isn’t about dominance or sadomasochism, it’s about appropriateness and monstrosity of equipments. how could a girl so young have those big? from birth defect? too much exercise? pinaglihi ba sa pakwan? whichever reason, maybe that’s why the term ‘gifted’ was coined. guess it’ll remain a mystery. just that it was on broad daylight, inside a puv. not a regular occurence especially to a conservative country like ours. but it’s not that i didn’t like what i saw either.

man is a sexual being as what philo 25 stated. some may be too physical in expressing it to the public. it’s just a matter of educating people in maintaining a respect towards modern day maria claras who deserve it; which in my opinion, everyone. but still, don’t blame me for having an inquisitive mind. and lastly, to clear things up, i’m not complaining.

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major credit goes to thesaurus for providing me a handful of synonyms to lessen the anomaly when referring to the female organ. instead of typing breast, udder sounds more innocent.

posted Monday, 27 June 2005

Paul made this comment,
that’s not perversion. that’s growing up. more to come bro, more to come.
comment added :: 27th June 2005, 21:38 GMT+08
nicole made this comment,
hmmm..this entry rendered me speechless lol all i can say is thank god for a good bra, that’s all i can say hahahaha
take care nicole

comment added :: 28th June 2005, 02:40 GMT+08
nina made this comment,
hahahaha nalingaw ko sa imong entry.. =) i have never encountered such an honest opinion from a guy with regard to breasts.. except from my boyfriend anyway.. which of course is delimited to the reasons why i cannot wear spaghetti straps myself .. hahahha now i understand eric even more.. mao diay.. sus mga laki gyud… =p
comment added :: 28th June 2005, 11:35 GMT+08
nix made this comment,
hmmmmm… errrrr…
this is a a major diversion from the usual entries you have.

errrr… i’m kinda speechless.

errr… hmmmmm.

comment added :: 28th June 2005, 12:27 GMT+08
amia made this comment,
hahahaha. u already know my sentiments regarding this. looks like you’re growin up bro.
it’s ok to look, i guess. as long as d ka nakakabastos pa. a woman should be respected regardless of what she’s wearing. some women wear certain types of clothing for the simple reason that they’re comfortable in it. like for example, mainit diba.

comment added :: 30th June 2005, 03:24 GMT+08
ed made this comment,
paul: only one way to find out, live life.
nicole: hehe. same with the briefs! lol

nina: mga bayi dyud! hehe.

nix: once in a blue moon ra bitaw. ;p

amia: haha, uu ate. lol.

comment added :: 4th July 2005, 20:01 GMT+08
ravissant made this comment,
wow, special mention pala ako dito. haha! dammit to hell! here goes my $45+ again, I need a pair of those damn things aside from what I got! f*#k!
comment added :: 6th July 2005, 11:42 GMT+08

back to school. as usual, guess will always be till eternity, a late enrollee. didn’t know that it could be such a hassle. especially if there’re more than one campus to go to and fro for the processing of requirements. i’m still lucky for availing a schedule that a few people would actually drool over. i tried so hard to squeeze in all the subjects in the afternoon, since i need to help at work during the day.
here’s me sked for the next 5 months.

MW
11:30 - 12:30 = ES 16A : Computer Fundamentals and Programming
04:30 - 05:30 = PE 13 : Basic Course 3

T
10:30 - 01:30 = ES 16AL : Computer Fundamentals and Programming Laboratory

F
04:30 - 07:30 = PHYS 31NL : Engineering Physics I Laboratory

MWF
01:30 - 02:30 = ENGL 3 : Aural/Oral Communication
02:30 - 03:30 = PHYS 31N : Engineering Physics I

TTh
07:30 - 09:00 = HIST 17 : Rizal Course
04:30 - 06:00 = SOSCI 6 : Philippine Society and Culture

M-F
03:30 - 04:30 = EM 211 : Calculus 2

or if you have table manners (hehe), it would look more or less like this.

23 units. full load. have classes in the morning from monday to wednesday, so not to create conflict with work. wish i could move them in the afternoon (or night) so i could stretch the time needed for operations. i got closed down by the remaining schedule so what can i say? coerced.

anyway, status is now 2nd year, irregular; sheesh. like i have a better alternative. i can only imagine me succumbing to caffeine to at least give my body a much-needed go on sunrise. but nah, gotta find other ways to win over anesthetic cold and rainy evenings; since i’ll be physically abused in the morning while being mentally drained in the afternoon up to the night. what a way to start a stressful schoolyear. oh well i guess patience is one of my virtues *wink*.

oh yeah, the uniform for the male was postponed to the next semester. also there’s this new ID swipe system that’s been introduced, at 250 Php additional to what’s already a mouthful of tuition fees. another topic to be contradicted by student activists. go LFS! whatever.

 

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on a sadder note (yes, sad). i looked like a jackass not knowing where my room was on my first subject. being an old student, i should’ve had the decency enough to locate the designated rooms on my load. but no. i tried to be the mister know-it-all coming a little bit later than the alloted time since it was still “early”. to cut the story short, i found my room after 40 minutes, all pooped and panting. only there was no teacher around. when i inquired from the students inside if there was a class, they told me that they were for the next session. the instructor already left. i also had a bit of a time clarifying if that place was the proper room. i stuttered. but with my case, who wouldn’t? great that i had a tongue-twisting room name to pronounce on a hot afternoon. try it, after an exhausting exercise, say: “is this room 222T?” 3 times, mouth dry.

in lieu with first day mishaps, my brother and i are classmates in physics. the one thing we tried so hard when we chose our skeds. was shocked when i bumped into him in class. well, it’s not like the world’s gonna crumble if you collide two offsprings in one subject, maybe lightning would strike. but that’s really of no deal.

this is what happened to add the list of casualties on my part.

Scene in Physics 31

instructor was explaining the grading system in class.

 

instructor: 50 percent from the class standing, 50 percent midterm grade… blah… blah… blah… 50 percent tentative final grade… blah… blah… blah… and a lot more 50 percents… blah… blah… blah… any questions? or clarifications?

-silent-

instructor: since there’re no questions, i’ll be the one to ask you. do i fail students? anyone who wants to answer? Mr. (last name), DANIEL, what do you think?

my brother: yes?

- laughter in class -

instructor: you are wrong! i don’t fail students. it’s the students who fail themselves. i’m just the one who computes the grades. you are the ones making your grades. it depends on you if you participate in class and study hard or not. now for my other question i would like to call another Mr. (last name), but this time it’s EDCEL. what are the chances of you getting the grade you want?

me: 50 percent?

-another sound of laughter-

instructor: you are also wrong! you have a 100 percent control of how you want your grade to be. *dazed look on us*

talk about unwanted limelight. brother said that he thought the instructor was the
kolokoy type. who wanted jokes fired back and forth the people in class. was having a difficult time on how to answer. i, on the other hand, replied the obvious cause i also wondered if he was also a kolokoy. since he was discussing about 50 percents, why not add some more eh? and to realize what he will think now of these two siblings and the impression we gave him. dumb and dumber anyone?

so we thought wrong. he was indeed the serious type. reminded me of our highschool adviser back. when he’d blurt out a corny (read: extremely corny) joke in class, nix and i would laugh like we were about to cry, aloud at that. plastik kumbaga. just to at least break the silence when we couldn’t get the punchline. looking at the deadpan expression of our adviser, it seemed like we weren’t very nice to him. but he was a good sport that he maintained his stance and continued the lesson. still he deserved the forced chuckles.

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so this is the life, busy as a bee. think i’m down with the flu or am just getting it. now i better go before i sting somebody.
posted Tuesday, 21 June 2005

nicole made this comment,

wow full load nga, anyway hang in there ed
take care! nicole
comment added :: 22nd June 2005, 02:19 GMT+08

ravissant made this comment,

at least you have your brother to keep you sane(?). I always liked it when my sisters & I would be in the same class. I had one of them in Choir together back in highschool. She was in the soprano section & I was in the alto section. everytime I’d look over her way she’d make faces at me. my classmates thought I was nuts coz I was cracking up by myself.

comment added :: 22nd June 2005, 06:54 GMT+08

nix made this comment,

OMG! si Mr. Caluoy, este Caluyo. Lol. I miss him Ed!
Anyhoo, back to school blues eh? Guess I’ll just blog about mine too.
comment added :: 22nd June 2005, 08:48 GMT+08

amia made this comment,

ako wala pakong back to school blues hehe

comment added :: 24th June 2005, 17:09 GMT+08

ed made this comment,

nicole: kakainis, na dissolve yung history 17 ko… now im underload by 3 units. sayang syado…
ravissant: nyak. kami, dapat malayo sa isa’t-isa… hehe… pero pag roll-call ng teacher, lalong nakaka-attract ng attention pag tinanong kung ba’t di kami magkatabi.
nix: LoL. he’s a good adviser noh? gud luck with yours.
amia: ows??? gud luck na rin na lang sa iba mong mga ‘blues’ hehe..

comment added :: 24th June 2005, 19:29 GMT+08

 
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you’re standing next to me

What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine

Let the rain fall, i don’t care
I’m yours and suddenly you’re mine
Suddenly you’re mine
and it’s brighter than sunshine

the best in life are yet to be emancipated from an eternal slumber waiting for the right moment to be hatched into the stillness of things. and yet, it is clearly devoided from a lifeform that resides in the complexities of surviving in a fairly tumultuous actuality. in fact one can only anticipate, in subsequent time, for the deliverance of what is essential in a reasonably pre-destined realm. and even so, we are hopeless nomads that are outnumbered from a disparity who refuse to give in to conformity only because they are at ease with accessible mediocrity. however, how adept we are in prompting them to be reformed to our rationalism is the undertaking of where you’ve been and what, by a great deal, you’ve attained. and if you have compassed that level of acquisition, you can acclaim that you’ve lived in accordance to what everyone has surmised. but aftermost, your own morals are renounced.

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don’t mind me, i just want to know if the same thought is still present when dealing with thesaurus. answer’s no, cause i didn’t have any idea of the concept i intended to write in the first place. this has got to be one of the most senseless entries i have. sayang naman rin kung idedelete ko. hehe. oh well, at least it’s better than a blank screen (subject for debate). but still, blog ko ‘to! speaking of this blog. whoa! version 4.0 of blog-city’s up. only change that i know as of the moment is i can control my gutter panel already (the one on the left). i also like the new look inside. neat and formal.

utak ko ngayon bangag.  

posted Thursday, 9 June 2005

made this comment,
hey ed, blog city was giving me a headache this past few days but it’s better na glad to see another entry from you!
take care nicole
comment added :: 10th June 2005, 02:05 GMT+08

ravissant made this comment,
i like the song that’s playing here. what’s it called?
rav
comment added :: 11th June 2005, 20:12 GMT+08

nix made this comment,
“You can acclaim that you’ve lived in accordance to what everyone has surmised. but aftermost, your own morals are renounced.” -> I totally agree, i think this is why most adults, parents, oldies, are miserable with their lives.
comment added :: 13th June 2005, 11:47 GMT+08

ed made this comment,
nicole: haha, thanks nic! sabog lang talaga.
rav: aqualung - brighter than sunshine.
nix: it’s a choice of giving in to the rules or creating your own. but what bothers me is not the people who have that decision, it’s those who die without ever knowing that an option actually exists. gud luck sa skul nix!

comment added :: 14th June 2005, 18:33 GMT+08

CNBGirl made this comment,
comfort in numbness? i like! i like!
aliw ang aqualung no? love the whole album.
comment added :: 16th June 2005, 19:04 GMT+08

Shawty made this comment,
we sometimes have the choice but when somebody decides for us its beyond our control.
comment added :: 17th June 2005, 07:46 GMT+08

edandhisdarkgreenlife made this comment,
cnb: thanks! mabuti naman!
shawty: kaw tenz? okay an ang tagay queen? hehe. ;p
comment added :: 21st June 2005, 19:46 GMT+08