I’m feeling better now; I’m back to work as well. It’s time to finish the number of evaluations I need to make for the fiscal month. I just feel a bit tired that life seems montonous. I’ve been in this position for 6 months already; I’ve been with the company for 2 years. I sometimes wonder if the new work I applied for is the one that I’ve always wanted. Of course, I want more. It’s just that I seem to be stuck here until I learn that the job I am initially aiming for would be filled up not because of the salary it entails. I’ve always pictured myself to move up the corporate ladder; but that was before I realized that I could get some other activities that would also benefit me in the end.

You can say that I’m in a dilemma. I want to move up but with all the unfinished business, I have a hard time pulling myself up. Because if I ever take the opportunity to be a step higher and pass, then I’d have to sacrifice the unfinished business and delay it some more.

I don’t know why up to now, I still pressure myself to be an achiever when I’m just average. And yes, I do have low self-esteem despite what I have accomplished. I guess it seems to be just my way of coping with different adversities in life so I can be a better person (yeah right, Ed. Where’d you get this sh*t?)

Anyway, I guess I have to get back to work then. Pfft.

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